Seeing My Soul Gifts in All That Is
“I am a vibrational ambassador for the world I want to live in.” ~ Michael Bernard Beckwith
There were only twelve people from around the world in this mastermind, and there was Dawn. As soon as I saw her I thought, “Oh no”. I first met Dawn in the lab for my coaching program at USM. She wasn’t in the class with all of us for the ten months leading up to the lab, but she audited the completion portion of the program and participated in the grand finale.
The lab for me was a celebration of all the ways I had grown as a life coach over the last ten months. It was a way for me to shine and to be seen and really stand forward in my authentic power and knowledge in front of my teachers and peers.
But, that’s not what happened.
Dr. Robert Holden was facilitating the coaching lab. I was so excited. He is lovely and when I am with him I am aware that he is the presence of love embodied. He was the keynote speaker at Royce Hall when I graduated with the portion of my Masters in Consciousness, Health, and Healing. On the first day of the lab, I shared with Mary Hulnick how I pretty much cried through Robert’s entire book Loveability, because it was so beautiful. Mary encouraged me to have Robert sign my book this week. I was overjoyed at the thought.
During the lab Robert used a beautiful black top hat (British I presume) to select names of people he would interact with throughout the program. Each time he reached into that hat with his silly half grin and the twinkle in his starry eyes, you could feel the anticipation in the room. You could almost hear everyone’s inner voice, “Pick me, pick me, pick me”. This went on all week. For six days. Every exercise, every assignment, every interaction, a name was pulled from the hat.
For an entire week my name, however, never, ever got pulled out of that hat.
And it was magnified by the fact that I stood in line on three separate occasions during the breaks to have Robert sign my copy of Loveability. Each time, the break would end just as I was next in line. I could feel myself flood with the disappointment and watch the stories in my head I began to make up about not being seen.
To add insult to injury with all of this, we did a beautiful morning exercise each day where we had the chance to hold hands and gaze into the eyes of other people in the room. It was a special and intimate exchange. Robert participated in this each day, but the energy flow never seemed to bring him and I together.
While I was busy being mad that no one was seeing me, Dawn’s name got pulled out of the hat. Then it got pulled out again. And, again. And, again. And, oh my God – why doesn’t he take her damn name out of the hat!!?? Again. She was seen and seen again and again and again. This was a trigger for me and Dawn became my outward projection of Being Seen. Or not.
So, all this happened. And now she’s in my mastermind. In a mastermind where there are only twelve people on the whole planet. And, there she is.
During my first private coaching call with Robert, I briefly share about Dawn. Robert chuckles and acknowledges me for sharing and we both know there is a bigger, deeper more soulful reason that Dawn and I have been brought together. Robert and I don’t talk about this, we just know it and it gets couched. My coaching continues.
We are three-quarters of the way through the Mastermind and surprisingly for me, Dawn has kind of been in the wings. She took a delicious trip through Europe and spent more time in Tuscany than with our group. I was unaffected by her. I was not in her shadow. And that was fine with me.
Then, and I knew it was just a matter of time, her and I get paired for peer coaching. Our coaching theme is My Soul Gifts.
We went back and forth on dates a few times to set our session. She mentions that on Sunday she is unable to meet in the morning as she will be attending Agape International Spiritual Center of Truth. I didn’t think twice in replying to her email and asking her if I could invite myself to go with her. Then, follow with our session. I thought this would be a lovely way for her and me to connect at a deeper level and I had not been to Agape in about 18 years. On some level I knew this union would somehow reveal the mystery of what we had to learn from one another.
She said yes.
We met out front at eleven. She had a couple of family members with her. We shuffled into the row in the beautiful historic LA theatre. Me first, then her family members, then Dawn on the end. We enjoyed a beautiful meditation together and then the service began. Forty minutes in, finally Michael Bernard Beckwith begins his share.
The first thing I notice is he has freed himself from his long braids and is now totally bald. I observe him as a live wire. Literally. He is bursting with aliveness. It’s as if he is unable to contain the energy that runs through him. He is a yeller. All his posse are yellers. At one point I was laughing as the people at the podium allowed their passion to burst through them, they were yelling. I remembered that everything is a projection and reminded my sweet self that is what I sometimes express when I too am filled with excitement and possibility.
Putting into words what occurred for me during Reverend Michael’s share is not easy. I can still touch into the swell in my chest bursting with the emotion of love and gratitude and overflow for this sacred experience and remembering. This little package of a man, this live wire embodied with all the magic and possibility for each one of us, reminded me of my Divinity.
He reminded everyone, and I am sure I must not have been the only one in the room with deep emotion pouring through me. But, in that moment it was all about me.
He held and acknowledged my empathic anguish for a broken world, my shock and dismay for our political climate, my own inner discouragement, doubt, distance, separateness and disillusionment. In a humongous wave of pure Divine Love with the focused trajectory of a shooting star he blasted away everything that was not the Truth. He blasted away anything that was not unlimited Divine potentiality.
“YOU ARE HARDWIRED FOR BLISS AND JOY!” he shouted. Getting everyone to join in asking for us to proclaim after his lead, “There is so much beauty in you, so much love and intelligence in you, so much power in you, and you have come to set it free, to make a mighty difference on this planet and to change the world for the better. Let’s be about this in the here and now. Feel the vibrational field you are creating with each other.” He reminded us that we are all connected because this presence is never absent. He shared about how consciousness proceeds form. With the burst of enthusiasm that he is, he reflected to me all that I AM. He reflected the beautiful example of who I want to be, what I am here to share, what I believe at the deepest level of my beingness.
I sobbed because I created this magnificent reminder. Because I am face to face with the responsibility of creating my own reality and the way it was reflecting to me with such magnitude, presence, grace and balance of the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine in the most luscious and juicy way.
I sobbed because in his expression Michael reflected to me, all my Soul Gifts.
He boldly defined with such clarity that humanity IS moving forward, and this is what it looks like to prepare us for a fast and enormous shift forward. That the women’s voice will never be silenced again due to recent events. That, what looks like “going backward” is just the tension of the slingshot being pulled in reverse which is just the preparation for an accelerated shot of evolution.
In every cell, every fiber of my being, I knew this to be true. It was the coaching I needed. Michael was the reminder. Michael Bernard Beckwith is my mirror.
For me and so many.
At one point, he invited all the women in the room to stand and then invited the men to follow his lead in unison, “We honor you, we support you, we support the rising of the divine feminine as the healing power on this planet. We stand with you, you are unmuted, you have power, love, creativity, you’ve got it all, we welcome it on this planet NOW”. And so, it is. Amen.
I couldn’t contain myself. I continued to sob.
Humbled by the remembering of why I am here, of what I am here to do. Reminded so clearly about how it works in the new world, how I want to experience the new earth. Reminded in the reflection of the gifts of my soul.
Inspired and reminded that WE must carry the vibration of the world we want to live in. That WE must BE the vibrational match to what we want. Reverend Michael gifted me with a new mantra I will be using as a checkpoint, a set point, a reference point for my life and my work.
“I am a vibrational ambassador for the world I want to live in.” and “I am prepared for more good than I can imagine”
I shout this from the rooftops. I emanate this as the vibrational frequency I am sending out and that I share with all whom I encounter. This is who I am and how I want to be seen.
My gratitude is spilling over. Even before the service, before Michael spoke a single word, during the meditation I had a deep sense of gratitude that was palpable. There is an energy, a vibration that is held by the beautiful people in this community. And it is real, and I can feel it.
I am in awe of this man and what he is bringing to this earth, what he has created in this Spiritual community and the foundation he has created to support all the Lightworkers, Gods, Goddesses, Teachers, Sages, Oracles, Wisdom Keepers and Healers that have chosen THIS time to be here on THIS planet.
He is a reset for my true north. He is how I see myself and my Soul Gifts.
I looked down my row at Dawn. With my nose running and makeup smeared I mouthed to her, “Thank you”, as I placed my hand on my heart and gaze deeply into her eyes in a gesture of love toward her. “Thank you”. I sat back on my velvet chair supported by the steel stadium seating in the Saban Theatre. I marveled at the silver etchings on the ceiling and the sea of people who were all just here loving each other.
What if coming to Agape today, on this day, was the reason Dawn’s name got pulled out of the hat so many times? What if Dawn was my reflection of what it means to be seen. To stand forward. To BE the vibrational match to who I am and what I want to experience in this life. What if this whole unfolding is just another elaborate and magical way that Spirit has orchestrated for me as a deep remembering of why I am here and what I am here to do and who I am here to be. Dawn is the catalyst for my Soul Gifts and seeing my reflection in all that is.
Yes, let’s go with that.
I am a vibrational ambassador for the world I want to live in. I am alive. I am grateful. I am embodied with love, peace, joy, aliveness, connection, intuition, knowingness. I am my loving nature, majesty, wisdom, resonance, illumination, truth and bliss. I am magic and synchronicity and wonderment. These are the gifts of my soul, and therefore; My Soul Gifts.
I am grateful for the connections, the relationships, the experiences that lift me up, that show me, me – I am appreciating my Soul Gifts and the Soul Gifts of every unique, individualized expression of the Divine. And today, on this day, I am grateful to see myself. And, I am grateful for Dawn.
If you’d like to experience the inspiration of Reverend Michael Bernard Beckwith, click here and page down to the Sunday service at 11:30. Reverend Michael begins sharing at 41 minutes.
Daily Spiritual Practice,
Even if You’re Not Spiritual
The pattern among many of my clients this week is the exploration and creation of a daily spiritual practice. When I’m in session with my clients, inevitably a theme will rise to the surface of our conversation that we’ll want to explore deeper. This weeks popular theme is daily spiritual practice.
It just so happens I’m participating in a Mastermind group right now about Success Intelligence with Dr. Robert Holden, Ph.D., and in this same week he suggested that a daily Spiritual practice is a requirement for taking our lives to the next level. Particularly if you want to play big.
“What if I’m not Spiritual?” you may be asking.
That’s perfectly fine, because then we get to work with energy.
So, I would first ask: Do you believe in energy? And that this energy has an intelligence to it that is the breath of life that animates all living beings? This is the energy that powers nature to do what it does all by itself and the same energy that keeps the planets spinning around without crashing into each other—it’s all the same stuff. Some people call it God or the universe, some see it as energy. It’s your choice how to interpret it.
I suggest honoring this energy, for its rewards are manifold. Work with it, play with it, let it flow. Savor its power within you and outside of you. This is the energy that animates you, so why not form a relationship with it? This is the beginning of mastery.
Here’s an example of this: after my first year of daily energy/spiritual practice, I had a prophetic dream that cancer was growing in my chest. My discovery was then verified by doctors who acted to save my life. It’s important to note that it was my spiritual (energy!) practice that created this dream, that allowed me to remember it and know how to process it for my wellbeing. (That story HERE)
So, what do we know about energy?
- Everything is energy
- It can’t be created or destroyed, as Einstein famously stated
- It’s expressed in different forms
- It just is – and it’s everywhere
Plus, energy IS our consciousness. And our consciousness IS how we are interpreting our reality—quite the mind-bender, yes?
Now where you place your focus or attention is where energy flows, because energy exists in every single thought you think and every single word you speak.
Why bother to create a daily spiritual practice?
Generally, people are not disciplined. This is because we force our lives into so many things that we “have to do” that when we have a free moment, we just want to break free. I am inviting you into this practice as a different way to create freedom in your life. Freedom to express, freedom to be who you want to be. Freedom to just be you with no rules or expectations or commitments.
I recommend you slow down and first place your focus on you. You and you. You and this energy—this higher power, this infinite intelligence. Notice it, sense into it, acknowledge this life force that animates you. Build a rapport. Begin a dialogue. Start a life-long conversation.
This energy has information for you.
Make your practice enjoyable. Create a space you love and gather together mind-enriching, heart-expanding “toys.”
My practice is “buffet style.” I start with about 26 minutes of TM meditation. There are a lot of meditation options out there. Then I “feel into” what is calling to me today. What messages are there for me? Is it in A Course in Miracles? Is it in one of my poetry books? The Abundance Book? Do I want to raise my awareness with knowledge about Soul Transcendence? Perhaps I will revisit my affirmations or ideal scenes about what I am creating in my life. I have a stack of Divinity cards I love to pull from. I have gathered together crystals and candles, dream journals and gratitude lists. Each day, following my silent stillness with the universe, I engage my mental and emotional levels of consciousness with whatever my heart is calling for in that moment.
If any of this resonates, here is what my my daily Spiritual practice looks like. Feel free to experiment with any of these ideas to find what feels right to you.
I love it so much and hardly ever miss it! It is the foundation of calm in my life. It is the undercurrent of peace and it’s always there. Through my daily spiritual practice of engaging with this beautiful peaceful energy, I am able to “tap into it” in the midst of chaos because I am intimately familiar with what it is and how to connect to it. My daily spiritual practice is time for me to allow my wisdom to merge with my consciousness. A time to step away from to-do’s and achievements and have to’s, ought to’s and shoulds. This is my time away from work, from responsibilities, from relationships, from my pets and my husband and my clients. This is my time. This is freedom.y daily spiritual practice is how I remind myself every day that the most important person in my life experience is me, and the energy breathing me. Sacred time.
Give it a try. Even if it’s just for five minutes. Intend to be still. You can BE with you. Relate to YOU. Listen to yourself breathe. For just five minutes. And then do it again tomorrow, and the day after that. You may find yourself falling in love. In love with life, in love with yourself, with this energy, with this infinite intelligence. You will support yourself and your life. You will create a foundation of support for yourself to play big.
Even if you’re not spiritual.